Oh, finally.

I haven't been posting for such a long time. On Wednesday, I went for pond studying. My beautiful black shoes were slightly BROWN. That sucks. I love them okay? But I can never wear them 'cos when I reach home and take off my shoes, it would be like someone dropped a stink bomb or something. My shoes would be stinky for a week+. No, I'm not exaggerating. So I have to wear socks but it is still smelly when I take them off. Well. I felt so tired lah. Then I had to study for damn Math. Well, let's just recount what happened from Monday onwards.

Monday, I just panicked. My computer damn broke down so I lost my ERP file which I worked "so hard on". Actually, I just spent about two hours on Sunday to complete it. Anyway, I was very scared. Due to some miraculous miracle, my dad and I fixed the computer at about 10pm. So I slept at 2am, practicing my ERP presentation and printing + binding my ERP written. I only slept at 2 'cos my sister forced me to. :( In the end, I got 17/20 for both sections, pathetically. I went back home and crapped around.

I started studying at about 6pm for the Social Studies Common Test. Then me and my eldest sister argued. It was just that I entered my sister's room to find that the light, fan and air-con is on. And the door was wide open so it was room temperature - wasting the air-con's energy! So I switched the three appliances off and even switched the air-con's main switch off. Then my sister shouted at me for doing so. Such an idiot, right? And I'm doing my biography on her, portraying her as very nice. Even my elder sister says that everything is false and just crap. Anyway, she also said that she is not going to go and on the air-con main switch 'cos it's very "far" and she just walked to the kitchen and back so she's very tired. My foot. She was standing approx. 3.5metres away from the damn switch. Damn her. So I annoyedly walked to the stupid switch and on it. I just commented, "You must have failed for your NAPFA, right?" Then she told me to shut up, bitch. She always says that to me and my sister and keeps saying the f word every now and then (more now than then) but this time I just felt really hurt and I couldn't concentrate on my revision. So I was crying on my bed and fell asleep, and being woken up by my mother.
Then I told her what happened and my mom was very shocked (my parents are in the dark about my sister's vulgaritiness). And she told me to threaten that I would tell my dad. My dad would probably scream his own head off, and everyone knew that well. He wouldn't never tolerate such a thing. Excuse me? He doesn't even tolerate~! But I just didn't say anything.

I guess I study pretty hard, from about 7 to... 11? Whatever. I fell asleep - the next day is just waiting to sabotage me. But I've been thru nothing yet.

I got off the bus with Megan, who was in the same bus, and then I saw Miss Lim getting off the same bus too. Coincidence~! And very good for me. I couldn't get a wink of sleep as I thought about how I could ask Ms Lim some questions regarding SS. I "questioned her" until we reached school and even asked her more things when we reached school, STALLING HER.

In the morning, Sinead and I were revising at first, and we were joined by Le Win. We compared ourselves to the carefree study group right behind us - Kimberly, Jaclyn and Evonne, watching them laugh and fool around. We then consoled ourselves that we are more serious and blah blah blah. Then Nicole came and asked me to test her. So I did, with Sinead also asking me to test her. Dilemma. Anyway, I just went back to my seat (so I don't get scolded) and then "group studied" with Coleni, Evonne, Kirsten, Eunice (I think), Yan Tong contributed and some other people. I wish I had studied more about Changi Airport. I died at the 2 CA questions. It was not bad, but hey, it was not good either. I'll be VERY happy if I get above 31.

At home I just slept. And slept. And slept. I wanted to wake up at 5am to study a bit (I consoled myself that you can't study for Maths) but that didn't happen. So, emotionally VERY weak, I missed my bus, went to another far away busstop AND BASICALLY THAT MORNING JUST SUCKED OKAY? I actually censored everything and replaced the word with something more mild. Use your imagination.

I tried to revise with Coleni but that didn't work either. It was certain, not death, failure. I am not so emo. "OMG I AM GONNA FAILLL. I DIDN'T STUDYY~! AHHH I HATE MATH! OH NOO!" No I am not like that.

I was lured in a false sense of security that the Math paper would be easy because 1. the revision papers were very, very easy and 2. I did quite well for my previous paper. But I was tricked. And I made a complete fool out of myself. Section A & B were manageable. Section C? That was just a killer. I couldn't finish THAT many questions. I was stupid. Maybe I was acting. Then meet the world's greatest actress.

Thank goodness I used SOME of my brain cells. I knew how to do part b of a question but not part a and it was essential to know how to do part a for part b but so I just said what the method was. Like, what I am supposed to do after I know the answer for part a. I am talking about the three big circles question. Now I know how to do though. AND THAT VAGUE METHOD GOT ME ONE METHOD MARK! =0/=)

I should have done the same for the rest of the blank questions. But actually I didn't 'cos I really didn't know what to do. Oh gosh, I passed, thank god. And I also scored 7.5 marks lower than my previous CT1 score, which was 45. To find out how much I got, do some math. Yay, I didn't fail.

Depressed, I went back home. Slept again~! I hate sleeping in the afternoon but my mom forces me. & I make myself do so too. =P Then I watched 'The Core' for the second time on Channel 5 and then did my biography and continued while watching American Idol: Idol Gives Back. A great show, I tell you. I love it.

I wanted to finish my portfolio 1 but I couldn't. I finished my Situational Writing. I realised that my eyesite has worsened ALOT. I totally need new spectacles.

Today was sickening. Stupid things happen. Wth, I can't even remember. But after school... oh yeah. I'm not supposed to talk about it. How annoying. Oh wells. Reached home at 3pm. I felt REALLY SICK. And I had to play with this annoying 5 year old guest. Bahh. Get this: Tomorrow, we would be having TWO GROUPS OF GUESTS. One of 3 people and another of 3 too. AND WE ONLY HAVE 3 BEDROOMS OKAY~! So 2 bedrooms = guest and one bedroom is me, mom and eldest sister and on sofa is my dad and elder sister. Whoa, we sleep on the sofa ALL the time. It's so comfortable lah. I have a very small house and if you live in a mansion/landed property than you would be disgusted by my HOME's size; whatever, I'm not, I'm disgusted by your's.

This is such a GOOMUF post. I might as well copy paste it to that blog, but I shan't. I feel so idiotic and I still have to do my damned Bengali homework.

I have poor English. It should be damned not damn.

aha. I am too lazy to put my inverted commas. Or 'THE FLYING COMMAS"

or "SUPER COMMAS~!"

And jaclyn, you idiot, you still need to post on the YOBAMA blog. Anyone else wants to join? You get to be an admin after your first post. (LOL ADVERTISEMENT.)

Shut up and DIE.

~sudss.

*need some enlightenment after a super annoying afternoon at 4.47pm*