EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! REJOICE!!!!!

I did a similar outburst on the Manical Madness blog. Hahas. So fun! At least now there's no honework, no studying (like I ever did study), nothing related to school except playing with friends and relaxing. But.. nevermind.

A lot of people are saying they can't wait for the holidays, although I definitely can wait. I hate holidays. It's like.. nevermind. I just hate holidays.

I'll be so free now.. and I'll have no idea what to do. All I want to do is watch the Golden Compass when it comes out in November/December, but by then I dunno.. But then maybe can watch Lars and the Real Girl during school term or something. Dunno. See whether anyone else wants to watch.

Playing with my handphone now.. just staring at the blank screen that's supposed to be the screensaver. Not like there's much to do. We're all free now, but a lot of people have gone out and all that. Not like I can..

Can't wait for the zoo trip. Last year we went (almost..) with last year's P5. I still remember complaining that it was unfair that while the seniors go to go visit the snakes, we had to go visit bugs. Not that I had or have any complaints about bugs, but snakes are still way cooler. This year's our turn, hehe. Our zoo trip last year was really nice, though.

It's freaking right now. The sun may be shining, but I feel like something that's been soaked and dropped on the floor, dripping wet and super heavy. I just took a bath, and I feel worse than ever. Bah.

Sister's gonna come home from maternal grandmother's place soon.. and I'll be ambushed again, by my brother crying because my sister has so smartly pushed or pulled my brother until he fell down, because they were "playing", or my sister running into the room, her arms dripping with water from the fish-tank, because she's been playing with the fishes and feeding the fishes with turtle food and the turtles with fish food, and then one of the fishes went and died, and the turtles looked sick, etc. And I've have to hook out the dead fish before it contaminated the water, and throw it away. Like our fish population isn't dying fast enough, even though we just bought 6 guppies, two that died on the way home to add to the nuumerous "red-fishes" in the tank, as well as 4 terras, one of which has gone missing, presumably because of my sister. Then my brother would come in after I finished with the fish and turtle problems and washed my hands, then he'd start crawling around all the papers on the floor, and start trying to eat them, and my attention would be super distracted from the work I'd have to do on the computer, and in the end I'd have no time to myself.

I wish they'd just stay at my maternal grandmother's place for just one day. Just one day of peace.

The last few days I've been over to my grandmother's place for lunch first, instead of going home or going to Tiong Bahru Market to eat. I'm sick of eating instant noodles at home, or just sitting at a table staring into thin air. It's like I've got nothing else better to do. Nothing else better to do than stare at the wall, daydream of things that will never happen, but are happening, to me in the daydream, and then be rudely interrupted by some squawk, whether by my super naggy paternal grandmother or my irritating sister.

English was okay, I didn't study. Average, lah. Then Science. I hate that stupid subject. It's not that I hate the subject in the first place. All those extra periods, stealing our PE, Art, and Music periods, which we almost never miss. It's like we had a science period every single freaking day. During our English exam, our Science teacher was invigilating, then she ended the exam 3 minutes early, and even put up a science question of the visualizer before she collected our papers! The exams isn't even over yet, you haven't collected our papers, and you put up a something on the board not relating to the exam?! Stupid. Stupid stupid stupid stupid. We even had three science periods before recess on Thursday, because our exam was after recess. Bah. Stupid freaking teaching methods. I fell asleep halfway through the teacher's explanation of some electric-thingy. Then Math was today. I am going to kill my math teacher, he made us do all those hard questions and made us so kanchiong! Saying stuff like "This is the kind of question that will come out in your exam", and all that. In the end, the paper was almost too easy to be true. I could do almost all the questions in section A and B in under one minute, which is very rare for me, and section C I finished quite fast, except for the last two questions. I didn't even leave many questions blank, just the last one. I even had time to check through a bit of the paper before the invigilator said "Pens down, I will be coming to collect your paper now."

Then I got back my Chinese results today. I could almost have just let my head drop to the table and die. I got really really bad. Why do I suck at Chinese so much?! It's unfair. I studied like siao for the stupid exam.. and I got those marks. I could have cried, inside. But I couldn't show anyone what I felt. I don't cry. I don't get red eyes, I don't sound funny. No one knows. And that is the whole point. I felt like my Chinese teacher was staring at me the whole time, "trying to catch me in an emotional breakdown". It's just.. unfair. Freaking. Sucky. Horrible. I got so bad......

Sigh. Exams are over but I feel like some dead, idiot person/

Life stinks.



Henghwee